i don't know why no one can answer to my question! why no one explain to me what ,happening right now! may be they think that they are helping me ,but this is wrong, because i am not who can live with  lying ,yes .....this is me. i love truth and i can not .live without it

 really i need someone to tell me why i can not live in a hapiness like all people in the world; why when i think that every thing is finished, and that there  is not more of sadness in my life, i find that i am wrong and ther's more and more, i don't know what should i do, but i am sure that i will believe that ther's no hope in this life, and the stupid is who think in  otherwise, because we are big now and we can not believe all what we listen ,and be sure that they lie when they tell you in the first often that the life is beautiful, and it contain a pink dreams which become true , all of this is in your imajination, sorry mum! but now i am sure that this is the worst thing that you ever tell me; i don't know why you do something like this ,may be you think that you are helping me, and may be you think that you will make from me a big dreamer, and may be also you think that when i believe that life is my friend i can live in it easily; but as you see  all your probabilities are false but i forgive you because i know that the life make you  a part of her dirty game 

so think you for no answer